When back to the doc on Wednesday for my preop and he ordered another ultrasound to check out the cysts. They are bigger than ever..one is 3 inches and the other 21/2, but yet the doc said that i looked 100% better (emotionally). and i feel that much better too, just peace about the whole thing. All a sudden, I'm like let's DO this! But now on Friday, it's hard again.... I have to keep reminding myself God is holding me right where He wants me. The surgery could be canceled due to me having a cold. Oh, this is not a part of my plan, this is not a option.. I suddenly "think" i need to "make" myself better. I like action! not waiting. To me, it felt like God didn't take away my cysts but made them bigger, so He must want me to have surgery. But now I have a cold, and it could get canceled. He wants to drop my "ideas" of fixing this thing and just let go.. let Him take care of it, the way He wants to. I must wait. and listen.
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