The Digital Age - Captured [Official Music Video]

Your Love is come to rescue me!!

The Digital Age - Captured [Official Music Video]

Your Love is come to rescue me!!

Hope

It is truly awe amazing how fast God/or Satan tests us.  Thinking about the overcomer post....I will push forward, I am not a quitter, I will believe.

Then bang, boom on Fri
       My faith is crushed.  Just because God changed my plans.  So little faith, its humbling.
Everyone was.... "God has a better plan"...... and I just wanted to punch a hole in the wall and scream no, no, no, my plan is best. I felt like I lost my mission.  What did I do now?
My heart was fighting me... if I can't handle this small disappointment, how will I ever be a good mom, good Christian, good wife, because life will have many more deeper caves???


Tues morning, G was so excited about a message to me on facebook, that he texted me... check fb.  Seconds later my sister texted me....wake up, check fb.  A message about a trip to china in Nov that still needs another team member. 

I had already saw it.... and it scared me.  I didn't want to hope.

They both believe this is it.  This is why God allowed, the other trip to be canceled.  But I'm slow to trust. 
G gives me reasons and reasons why this is it. 
             It's with a medical team and I have always wanted to go with a medical team.
             It's directing me with the people and the children that will fulfill His plan


I got the paperwork and filled it out but...
I wait...

My heart cracked a little deeper

I can hardly see through the blurry eyes.  I prayed, prayed, prayed, and prayed if I should go, and finally made the decision to sign up to go on a mission trip to China for 10 days.  God slammed the door shut today.  They canceled the trip in October.  I feel like my heart cracked a little deeper.  I feel like my life just stopped.  Nothing matters.

God allowed Daniel to be put in the lions' den. 
In a deep deep pit. 
With hungry animals.
He could have stopped the whole thing before it happened. But He choose not to.
He wanted to work a miracle.

Please Lord, I'm begging you, work a miracle in this pain.

Being a Overcomer!

Some people find that they love love exercise, others like me, not so much.  I love the concept of it and I love how I feel afterwards. 
The thing that I admire about fitness trainers or runners is their "no give up attitude".  They push on, even when their lungs want to explode and their muscles are shaking.  It's their dedication.  Their self discipline. 

Sometimes as I run my little mile and half and then my boot camp class, I want to quit.  I just hurt, I can't breathe, my muscles shake, my lungs are irritated and just want time to cough up a lung.

And then I think, I'll just quit.

But I wonder what if God gives me big stuff like.... giving up my dreams, losing my husband, or take away my health, or my family, or if we lose our jobs, or persecution for my faith.  If I can't run a mile, because I have no self discipline, no dedication, then how do I expect to "overcome" in persecution?

So I put one foot in front of the other for a little longer and sing this song in my head
"Don't Quit, Don't Give In, You are a Overcomer"
Stay in the fight, until the final round, You are NOT going under cause God is holding you right now!
Whatever it is that you may be going through,  He is not going to let it get the best of you!

listen...
 Mandisa Overcomer

Sleeplessness

Remember when you were a kiddo and something sooo exciting was going to happen in the morning that you couldn't sleep.  I have that now, and to most people it's not exciting. I'm starting a four week exercise class again. I'm thrilled!  Mainly to just get a healthy routine started. Since I work around people all the time, sometimes I get tired of people. But with exercise, I NEED people... Badly. Or I do too much of this.