First week of homeschooling was supposedly optional but it really wasn’t. Then the second week, we started Abeka online that is mandatory. I know our teachers were/are working incredibly hard to figure out how to tell us parents simply and clearly what happens next. And I thank you!!
With that said.. we still struggled. But we completed another week.
When we found out for sure that we will be homeschooling for alot more weeks..I told Josie, “I’m sorry that you are missing your friends and teacher, (but with faith in my heart, I tried to say confidently) but we can DO this!”
And even after uncountable times of google help to pronounce/find the meaning of words and buckets of tears (mostly from me), Josie said, “This is fun, maybe we will do this next year, I don’t really miss them.”
What?!?
I honestly don’t know if I should be stinking proud of her or check her into a attachment disorder group.
Anyways... we set up a desk area for her and organized her papers. It’s getting a little easier.
Anyways. She is the most forgiving person in my entire long life. I had no idea that when becoming a parent that she would teach me more important things than I could teach her.
But we have had so many fun times too... we got to snuggle while doing reading, go biking, pretend to play tennis, draw with chalk, do Bible videos in bed, learn to make pizza crust, try new foods together, and so many other things.
This schedule change has been hard in many ways. For both Josie and I. Trying to balance work and school. Missing all of our friends. Her always touching and me needing a bubble. And then allll the news. About COVID 19. And death. And fear of the economy crashing. And waiting for Zuri and all the unknowns of how she is doing. And when will we travel. And Dad’s chemo.
My constant prayer is asking God to take away fear and grant peace. And He does. But then I have to ask again. And again. Because I’m a slow learner apparently.
We celebrated Zuri 2nd birthday with balloons, birthday banner, singing, and a ice cream birthday cake. We chose joy into tears that day. It is soo hard being a world apart. But God granted us a little miracle that day.
About a month before I searched high and low for a way to get a care/birthday package to her. Our usual woman wasn’t replying to emails/her website, so we assumed that she was shut down due to the virus. Then I asked on one of my adoption fb groups and a random lady said that she had a friend that lived in China that can do them. I felt like we were kinda risking losing money by trusting a stranger but decided to give it a try. She allowed us to pick out things that we wanted and then we waited to see what would happen. Several weeks later, the week of Zuri’s birthday, I again messaged her seeing if it got there.
Then on Zuri’s birthday, I got a fb message that had pictures and 2 videos of our dear sweet girl!!!!!! It was such a surprise and so special! We had hoped but never dreamed that we would get anything and felt like God whispered into our 💕 hearts.
In February, one of my church ladies asked if we wanted to start a fb page to encourage us in having a goal of 100 miles until the end of April and drink 1/2 of our body weight in ozs. And I was ALL in. I look back on it and see how God was in the little tiny details then so that I would survive now.
Because of this challenge.. I have started to “run” again. I put it in quotes because it’s more like a hippo waddling. But still, I’m trying. It truly has been keeping me out of the looney bin. Just when I think I just can’t anymore.. I go out and breathe the fresh air. Honestly, running at dawn or dusk is the best. Especially if you smell fabric softener from a running dryer or freshly mowed grass. Both make me instantly smile.
Tonight it was already after dinner and I didn’t get my 3miles in for the day. I thought “maybe I will just skip, I’m so tired!! It will not be a big deal!” Then I looked at the calendar and saw that it would be the first day that I skipped for four weeks.
Nope.
Nope.
And I headed out. Can’t be a quitter. And like always..it was just want my brain needed. I jogged slowly then a turtle for the entire 3 miles.
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