Divine Appointment

I believe this China trip is a Divine appointment.  God canceled the other one, so that I would get to go to this one.  There is someone or something that I need to meet or see.  I'm positive. 

I'm praying for emotional calmness.  I'm very afraid that I'm going to be a emotional mess.
I'm told that a mess is a given, but  that I need to hold it together until I get back to my room (say some prayers for me? please!).

I was asking/telling Gary that, why do I feel like this is God's leading, why is this trip so special?   I should look at very day as "a God moment", "a God appointment".  I head to work just as excited, that God has something special for me today. 

I aimed high today... Started the day with lots of prayer.  Today was going to be a GREAT day.  blah.  Why do those days turn, I was short in patience, had to apologize.

Our Great God has a wonderful character, forgiveness.  He allows me to start over again. Thank God.  As I drove home, I decided I needed a restart.  (ps, I really dislike cooking).  So somewhere in my crazy mind, I headed to the grocery store, so I could cook something for my dearest husband.

Two hrs later, I realized that I actually just enjoyed cooking (happens like never).  Did someone say God moment?

I was lost, I was falling apart
But You came along and hit the RESTART.