Gary was sad to return to work. He has fallen hard. He mentioned that he is going to miss some many firsts. There are so many things that she has never tried or seen. It is fun :). Mama and child wishes that he could stay home too.
She is starting to play a little by herself. I feel like I can take potty breaks or check the laundry now. Lol.
We have had some visitors but we are trying to limit them as much as possible. You may think this sounds rude, but she has not attached yet. She will give another woman as much as attention as she gives me. And I will say that is not fair. I have given my everything since I have seen her little precious face two and half weeks ago. And I'm still fighting for her love and her kisses. I have prayed over her for years. We have cleared out all of our savings for her. We fought for her because she needed a family. I NEED for her to figure out that I am the Mama. ( and papa). The ones that would move mountains for her. The ones that will never leave. The ones that considers her priceless.
It kills my heart to see her touch you willingly, but will turn away from my kisses or hugs.
It is getting better but...
don't try to squeeze her and get her to give you kisses and hugs.
Don't. For me. For us.
She will have time to love you up later.
Yesterday I tried for a nap. Complete meltdown for child and mama. Today I said FORGET it. So not worth it until we settle in better.
She LOVES being out of the house. Although that doesn't translate into loving her car seat.
We tried to go to the canal, but it dumped rain. Not sure if she was mad that we didn't get out or if she was just tired of the car seat... Either way such screaming. I may or may not have pitched her toes to keep her from kicking. I was going to head home but decided getting out would make her happier so we headed to the grocery store. As soon as she knew she was getting out, she was good. The grocery store was an adventure to this child. In her marbled words, she would ask, what's that to everything on the shelf.
When we go on walks, I think she asks "what's that" to every bird.... And tree, and mailbox and car and....
Minds just want to know :). She normally repeats the words back.
Her word for the day is cho cho for train. One baby video that is to learn numbers 1-5, has a train in it and she would go clear crazy trying to get our attention and would get up in our faces with wide eyes and point and say "cho cho".
As always I thank you for the prayers and plead for more. Parenting is humbling. Who would have known how many times we would ask out loud.. "You need to poo poo?" Unbelievable. Parenting is beyond challenging. She know how to push boundaries.
We need so much wisdom and we always doubt what we are doing and if it's right. We fail. And then we start over.
I, in return, pray for you too. I thank God for each one of our supporters and encouragers and pray God blesses you back again and again. Because I know I will never be able to repay you for all you have done. You are a blessing.
He is faithful. Always.
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