Sickness in the house

Satan is mean and knows to kick us when we are down. Little one has been sick for days and sleep is barely happening for all thee of us. As Gary walked in the door, I escaped to the bedroom to sob. First time parenting a high fever and uncontrollable coughing and gagging. We had tried everything and nothing worked. 

My sleepless mind told me.. “you are a failure!  You can’t even parent your own child. You will never succeed in life. You are a useless person. 

She managed to keep her banana and medicine down for two hours so I gave her a popsicle. As I handed it to her... she looked up with her beautiful shining eyes and said, “Mom, you are the best Mom ever “. I walked away fighting tears. 

“This is fun”.. she says. I ask, “Honey, what are you talking about?”  “Being together” she replies as she grins from ear to ear.