I just got my flight and hotel confirmation!! It's really happening! I'm really going to China. I did have to do a victory dance. Yup, I did.
G is trying to help me through the visa process. I don't like the paperwork. Period! I was so confused so, I handed the instruction paperwork to G to look at and then left for a half an hr. As soon as I came back, he said "this is NO walk in the park!" lol.
Sometimes I wonder how in the world, I got through all the dossier stuff. I'm not very good at branching out. But one paper at a time. Jesus will get me through.
Wednesday, October 16, 2013
Saturday, October 5, 2013
Being Me
I tried to cover my shine
I've tried staying in the lines
You want me to take my light
Fit it in your box right
But this is who I am
I won't hide it
God made us all different. He doesn't expect us to be like the next guy or to stay inside the lines of another's ideal shape. If He did...
You want me to take my light
Fit it in your box right
But this is who I am
I won't hide it
God made us all different. He doesn't expect us to be like the next guy or to stay inside the lines of another's ideal shape. If He did...
He would have build unisex robots. All with same skin tone, same eye color, same nose shape, same height, same dreams, and same beliefs. We would all sleep in the same position, get hungry at the same time, sweat the same, laugh the same, cry at the exact same time, and all die the same way.
It would be like looking in a mirror, all the time. I'm bored just thinking about it. So bored I could die, or wait I'm not allowed to yet, we must all die together.
No, No
No, God made. Us. Unique. God made us all colors. A gorgeous rainbow. We will have some beautiful characteristics the same if we follow Christ. We may look like "crayons".
Some will be bright, some dull, but ALL unique.
Don't apologize for it.
Be YOU tiful!
Thursday, September 19, 2013
Hope
It is truly awe amazing how fast God/or Satan tests us. Thinking about the overcomer post....I will push forward, I am not a quitter, I will believe.
Then bang, boom on Fri
My faith is crushed. Just because God changed my plans. So little faith, its humbling.
Everyone was.... "God has a better plan"...... and I just wanted to punch a hole in the wall and scream no, no, no, my plan is best. I felt like I lost my mission. What did I do now?
My heart was fighting me... if I can't handle this small disappointment, how will I ever be a good mom, good Christian, good wife, because life will have many more deeper caves???
Tues morning, G was so excited about a message to me on facebook, that he texted me... check fb. Seconds later my sister texted me....wake up, check fb. A message about a trip to china in Nov that still needs another team member.
I had already saw it.... and it scared me. I didn't want to hope.
They both believe this is it. This is why God allowed, the other trip to be canceled. But I'm slow to trust.
G gives me reasons and reasons why this is it.
It's with a medical team and I have always wanted to go with a medical team.
It's directing me with the people and the children that will fulfill His plan
I got the paperwork and filled it out but...
I wait...
Then bang, boom on Fri
My faith is crushed. Just because God changed my plans. So little faith, its humbling.
Everyone was.... "God has a better plan"...... and I just wanted to punch a hole in the wall and scream no, no, no, my plan is best. I felt like I lost my mission. What did I do now?
My heart was fighting me... if I can't handle this small disappointment, how will I ever be a good mom, good Christian, good wife, because life will have many more deeper caves???
Tues morning, G was so excited about a message to me on facebook, that he texted me... check fb. Seconds later my sister texted me....wake up, check fb. A message about a trip to china in Nov that still needs another team member.
I had already saw it.... and it scared me. I didn't want to hope.
They both believe this is it. This is why God allowed, the other trip to be canceled. But I'm slow to trust.
G gives me reasons and reasons why this is it.
It's with a medical team and I have always wanted to go with a medical team.
It's directing me with the people and the children that will fulfill His plan
I got the paperwork and filled it out but...
I wait...
Friday, September 13, 2013
My heart cracked a little deeper
I can hardly see through the blurry eyes. I prayed, prayed, prayed, and prayed if I should go, and finally made the decision to sign up to go on a mission trip to China for 10 days. God slammed the door shut today. They canceled the trip in October. I feel like my heart cracked a little deeper. I feel like my life just stopped. Nothing matters.
God allowed Daniel to be put in the lions' den.
In a deep deep pit.
With hungry animals.
He could have stopped the whole thing before it happened. But He choose not to.
He wanted to work a miracle.
Please Lord, I'm begging you, work a miracle in this pain.
God allowed Daniel to be put in the lions' den.
In a deep deep pit.
With hungry animals.
He could have stopped the whole thing before it happened. But He choose not to.
He wanted to work a miracle.
Please Lord, I'm begging you, work a miracle in this pain.
Thursday, September 12, 2013
Being a Overcomer!
Some people find that they love love exercise, others like me, not so much. I love the concept of it and I love how I feel afterwards.
The thing that I admire about fitness trainers or runners is their "no give up attitude". They push on, even when their lungs want to explode and their muscles are shaking. It's their dedication. Their self discipline.
Sometimes as I run my little mile and half and then my boot camp class, I want to quit. I just hurt, I can't breathe, my muscles shake, my lungs are irritated and just want time to cough up a lung.
And then I think, I'll just quit.
But I wonder what if God gives me big stuff like.... giving up my dreams, losing my husband, or take away my health, or my family, or if we lose our jobs, or persecution for my faith. If I can't run a mile, because I have no self discipline, no dedication, then how do I expect to "overcome" in persecution?
So I put one foot in front of the other for a little longer and sing this song in my head
"Don't Quit, Don't Give In, You are a Overcomer"
Stay in the fight, until the final round, You are NOT going under cause God is holding you right now!
Whatever it is that you may be going through, He is not going to let it get the best of you!
listen...
Mandisa Overcomer
The thing that I admire about fitness trainers or runners is their "no give up attitude". They push on, even when their lungs want to explode and their muscles are shaking. It's their dedication. Their self discipline.
Sometimes as I run my little mile and half and then my boot camp class, I want to quit. I just hurt, I can't breathe, my muscles shake, my lungs are irritated and just want time to cough up a lung.
And then I think, I'll just quit.
But I wonder what if God gives me big stuff like.... giving up my dreams, losing my husband, or take away my health, or my family, or if we lose our jobs, or persecution for my faith. If I can't run a mile, because I have no self discipline, no dedication, then how do I expect to "overcome" in persecution?
So I put one foot in front of the other for a little longer and sing this song in my head
"Don't Quit, Don't Give In, You are a Overcomer"
Stay in the fight, until the final round, You are NOT going under cause God is holding you right now!
Whatever it is that you may be going through, He is not going to let it get the best of you!
listen...
Mandisa Overcomer
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