Hope

It is truly awe amazing how fast God/or Satan tests us.  Thinking about the overcomer post....I will push forward, I am not a quitter, I will believe.

Then bang, boom on Fri
       My faith is crushed.  Just because God changed my plans.  So little faith, its humbling.
Everyone was.... "God has a better plan"...... and I just wanted to punch a hole in the wall and scream no, no, no, my plan is best. I felt like I lost my mission.  What did I do now?
My heart was fighting me... if I can't handle this small disappointment, how will I ever be a good mom, good Christian, good wife, because life will have many more deeper caves???


Tues morning, G was so excited about a message to me on facebook, that he texted me... check fb.  Seconds later my sister texted me....wake up, check fb.  A message about a trip to china in Nov that still needs another team member. 

I had already saw it.... and it scared me.  I didn't want to hope.

They both believe this is it.  This is why God allowed, the other trip to be canceled.  But I'm slow to trust. 
G gives me reasons and reasons why this is it. 
             It's with a medical team and I have always wanted to go with a medical team.
             It's directing me with the people and the children that will fulfill His plan


I got the paperwork and filled it out but...
I wait...