This is for one of my besties... for J!
I know it's been a hard day.. some days are so hard.. that it's impossible to trust, to believe, to have faith.
I will never forget when I heard this song for the first time.. what a dumb song. I just didn't get it. at. all.
Until one month of my life...where I felt like God was asking for me to give up my dreams. to give up my hopes, my love. He wanted surrender. I didn't want to let go. The battle continued.
I felt like all the air was being sucked out of my lungs.
That I couldn't pray.
No one cared.
Husband didn't understand.
I was being pushed under water.
And held there.
Where are you, God??
Where?
No answer...
I couldn't dream why God would ask me to give up "good ideas" of mine
But others were praying, lifting me up..
And one day is the middle of darkness, I heard this song.. tears.. everywhere. Here God is my heart. I will trust in the unknown. Trust that You, Lord, have a better plan than I do.
"I cried out with no reply
And I can't feel You by my side
So I'll hold tight to what I know
You're here and I'm never alone"
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