Call me in

So again our manager is off sick and I somehow get put in charge.  *at least it seems like it.  I'm at work for hr and I'm starting to have a sore throat and getting those morning yawns.  I'm starting to shut down and am telling my coworker D about my throat and that I may need some caffeine.  She tells me "you don't look good".  Meanwhile behind me another coworker C is listening.  Well, C disappears for a few minutes and then comes back and announces that she called the "district manager" to tell her that I'm sick and need to go home, so we need more help.  HELLO?!? 
me..What??
her..You are sick, you need to go home.
me..What??  I have a cold and am tired.  But I'm not sick.  I'm not going anywhere.
her.. Well, I told her that you were.
me.. Please tell me you are joking.

me.. Please inform me next time BEFORE you call me in sick
her..(throwing her hands in the air, and getting loud)  I am just trying to help and next time I will not listen or open my mouth.
me..(thinking...please DONT open your mouth)

me.. (looking like a turd)(calling the manager)..umm, we had a misunderstanding, I am not sick, we do not need help, and i am not going home

time needed to push screwdrivers through my eyes......arghh

later in the day
me.. (coworker S and I talking)  this place gives me anxiety
her.. (good olde C)  I don't let this place get to me....(see it running off her shoulders..)
me..  (mouth falling open) (mind is telling mouth to stay closed) (she obvious doesn't have her coworkers calling her sick just because)))!!!!!

Pink & Red & Hearts

I don't like all holidays.  Like Mother's Day, nor Father's Day.  It just makes my heart break, where is our daughter?  Even Christmas and Thanksgiving ~ can be hard when you are missing a huge piece of your heart/life.

But...

I love Valentine Day's.  I know seriously, I shouldn't.  It's tacky, says my friends.  Just like I'm not supposed to like birthday, but I do.  I like pink, I  like red, I like hearts. So I meet G in Winchester at our favorite hotel.  On a tuesday afternoon.  Like a teenager sneaking kisses in the parking lot.   I feel complete.  I will remember this... on Mother's Day.

"Here I am staring at your perfection
In my arms, so beautiful
The sky is getting bright, the stars are burning out
Somebody slow it down

Cause in the daylight we'll be on our own
But tonight I need to hold you so close

I was afraid of the dark but now it's all that I want"

Celebrating...

    I got a text from my mom (they are in LA visiting with some new friends) and she told me that they are trying a different nationality of food every night.  I love this.  I thought about it all day.  Maybe because we just introduced them to Indian food for the first 2 weeks ago.  And that my parents are flying to new places and trying new things.  Makes me want my girl.  Just saying.
I am fascinated by all things not American.  I could stare for hrs at skin tones and physical features(in fact, G wonders about me at times).  I want to try every food, anywhere, anytime.  I want to be taught new traditions.  new celebrations.
    Then tonight my brother (and family) invited us over for Chinese takeout (he eats chinese food at the most once a yr, so this makes me want to check his temperature, make sure he isn't deathly ill).  So I guess, in a weird way, we celebrated Chinese New Year. kinda. 

    The other day, my friend called me up and asked me where I was at.  I was 10mins for her house.  And then she simply said "I need You".  It was just for a ride because her vehicle's battery was dead, but....
Those words, they speak.
    I wonder if I was ever told that before (other then my husband of course).  But we get so self dependent.  We need no one.  It is weakness to admit it. We don't want to inconvenience anyone.  We don't want anyone to know about our faults or flaws or needs.
    I wonder what a difference it would make in our world, if we JuSt admitted that we need each other.

Super Bowl isn't so super, but the FRIENDS...

so there is a first time for everything. 
I watched  my first football game ever and first super bowl ever.  We were with some amazing friends that tolerated my retarded questions, like how do you win? or how do you goal? and why are you yelling with excitement when they all are on a pile?

But it's the friends... makes my heart sigh with happiness that my friends love us just the way we are.  Truly amazing.

God is alive and working

The little girl that months ago, we got her file to review.. while she has been matched, Praise God!  I feel sad that she isn't mine, but I know now that God wanted us to say no, so she would go to "her perfect family".  I do believe with all my heart that God has a little one picked for us and will guide her file into our agencies hands.  At the perfect time. 

I also got a little video clip from the little girl that we sponsored through ZKO before she got adopted.  It is true, the reward of seeing this little girl happy, is way more than any amount of money.  I just keep thinking... a soul is worth more than all the money in the world.

hearts in China

Refreshed

so, I'm on my round two of the yucks.  I had the flu two weeks ago and then followed by a terrible cold, felt ok for 2 days and now it's back.  Even when to the doc to see if I have the fungus of the mongus.  Nope, no flu or strep throat, just round two of a cold.
I feel blah
blah
blah.

I just wonder from one side of the house to the other.  I have work, lots of stuff to do, but...
So I read my friends blog on healthy eating and now I feel blah "and" fat. 

So now I feel like eating something bad for me.  Since I have all the time of the world (at least I'm acting like it), I get my pomegranate out.  (I have to google the word pomegranate of course, because I can't spell).  What a pain, to break apart, but...

This fruit is amazing.  So sweet and refreshing.  I know it's high sugar, but tell myself that it's "natural" sugar. 
You should sooo try one.

On another note, we met with some new friends last weekend.  They are in the process of paperwork for adopting from China.  It was so refreshing to have someone that "understands" the mountains of adopting.  We need more friends that "get it".
You should adopt too :)

We have book club next week, and I'm trying hard to get my book "Uncle Tom's Cabin" finished.  What a tearjerker. 
You should read this too.