She's so funny

Today, she found something she was looking for and said, "there it is, BOOM". 

Had me rolling. 

So ridiculously full of life ;) all the time. 

Changes

So many changes..

She is already growing up and we both have our brakes screeching.  She wanted to put herself to bed once this week and she walked into her bedroom and closed the door.  My mind was internally screaming but I was waiting to see what G was going to do.  He turned and looked at me and said, "I'm not ready for that".  "ME EITHER, OPEN that door".

She has even taken a few naps and was happy about it.  That is a miracle.  You just may not know.

She stayed over night at Grandma's again and did good again.  She seemed to get it sooo much more this time that mom and dad was going to come back.  And she has been begging to go back :).

Her first words in the morning isn't "Baba work?" but now is telling me who's turn it is to put her to bed.  We take turns and you better believe she remembers who's next. 

I took her to the library for the first time two weeks ago and it was terrible.  I may have said that I wasn't going back in again.  But yesterday I went back in with her and it was like a million bucks better.  You just have to have to have two hands available since she has two hands grabbing.  She LOVES books.
I was joking around the other day about having no friends to go to the library with since it was in the middle of the day and she looked up in all seriousness and said "church".  She remembered me telling her who was sitting beside us and that they are mommy and daddy's friends.  She had signed friends to me then.  NOTHING passes her.

We got a betta fish.  I asked what to name it and her choices were People, Gum and Carpet.  I thought it was going to die but it hasn't yet and it's been about a week so we asked her again, and this time, she picked Gum.  We feed Gum every day.. she reminds me.

I took her to the eye doctor just for randomness really. On one of the referral pictures, I thought her eye was crossed but no doctors said anything about it, even after John Hopkins' 5 or so doctors and then her regular doctor.  But still I decided to take her, and her one eye is not great at all.  She needs glasses....my heart moans at this.  All those annoying kids and glasses in our office, well now I'm going to be those people.  Its a amazing how things come back to bite you in the rear.  Just a note to you, just get their eyes checked to be sure.  

Today we just picked them up and she wore them for the rest of the day.  I may have only gone grocery shopping and glasses watching done today.  Nothing else.  Hey, it's a full time job. I told her that she could take them off a hr before bedtime, but she wanted them back on. Crossing our fingers and toes that they stay in one piece for a week. 

I'm bored, just saying.  That's not saying that I don't have anything to do.  My house isn't clean, nor my laundry caught up, and have no idea what we are eating tonight.  I just have days that I struggle with no end in sight of missing people.  I have started a Pinterest string art just because of feeling blah blah and my hand hurts from pounding nails and so does my neck.  lol.  But it took a few minutes away from the day.  I'm listening to some instrumental music and it's putting me to sleep.  I just bargained with dear daughter that if she puts her abc puzzles together correctly that she gets candy.  Trust me, I'm mean, she may get three m&ms but she thinks its worth it. Anything for several minutes of quiet time. 

I don't feel like she has learned to play by herself or her age of friends any better. They said it gets better with time and I'm begging for time. I had my old coworkers over for game night and it was fabulous with no kids to fight with. Apparently I'm going to have adult parties only. Haha. I know the emotions are more than we can see and more than she can express. After a night with small kids and fighting and what not, she will have a restless night of 3ish times of crying. We wonder oh, wonder what history she has and why it unsettles her. 

Her words have exploded and it's hard to guess what she is saying. She gets very annoyed when you don't guess right. She didn't want to hug me after a bath. After a long time, we figured out that "she was soggy", at least according to her. She is using the word "actually" in the funniest ways. She will just randomly add it to the end of a sentence. "I play toys actually".  

She wants to go and see and do everything. She wants to "go now, build snowman" every day. I was telling her about how Jesus died on the cross for our sins and she looked up so seriously and said "Josie go cross too". 

Later looking at a submarine, "Josie go mama and daddy too". 

She will match everything!!   As in, the colors of my clothes will get matched to the colors on the cereal box or the signs in food lion. Oh, the giggling, when she realizes that she matches mama or baba. 

Sooo after a long day... Yeah, I want to go to the cross too. Let it all down at the feet of Jesus. You can too.